Vom Com

I’m not sure if anyone else sees these signs of illness. I’m not sure what ‘normal‘ is….


Evie has a low immune system. It’s not something that you can diagnose. It just becomes obvious over time that she picks up every snivel and bug going. And that bug wipes her out more than Mr Average…..


I am sitting here typing this on my phone in the dead of night. I’m holding a sick bowl and am draped in towels to catch the vomit.


I thought something was wrong…
I saw the lashing out…
The strangely mottled skin that indicates something’s a brewing…


The feeling of her being hot, but no actual temperature…
The chewing of everything…
The flicking of my fingernails…
The getting up and up and up and up and up…
Tearful…
Angry…
Unable to form words…


In the past (pre tonsillectomy) Evie would get tonsillitis every fortnight. So we would have choking and vomit and ridiculously high temperatures.


I could understand that.

Now we get the aggression, due to her being unable to voice how she feels…

I feel powerless;

I know every parent does;

But she is my baby;

My world;

She shook from fear, from temp;

So I clean it up;

I worry about tomorrow; will we all get it; will we have passed it on?; will she be ok?

When will be the next bug? They come too frequently…I thought she was stronger…come on May…we’re so over infection season…

#moanover

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